My uncle died when he was 52.
He had severe diabetes and his pancreas was totally exhausted. In the end he
was blind, had heart issues and was clinically obese. Before he took ill, there
was a little joke in my family “he’s an eater!” They would say. He loved his
desserts.
I watched my grandmother check her sugar every
morning and then take insulin shots- she looked like a junkie with her arm
stretched out, I saw it so often it was the norm. She adored blueberry pie
among other sweet things.
Sweets have had their pull on
me too, at the height of my sugar addiction I was eating 5 candy bars a day, I
was 11 years old. I was often alone and those candy bars were everything to me.
Now at 41 my relationship is different. It is a balanced and healthy relationship,
but it took a lot of work to get to this place.
I see the other part of the
sugar story – there is so much love there. I asked my husband what he wanted
for his birthday last week and he said, with a huge smile “a chocolate cake and
some cookies… can you make me those?” “Of course” I said with enthusiasm.
As I mixed the batter, I
remembered a love of baking, I remembered being 4 years old, before my father and mother divorced, before the fighting and turmoil, Mom and I would bake cupcakes.
Just Mom and I, my brother was at school, my father at work, there just us two
alone in the bright blue kitchen. We focused on nothing else but each other and
baking… cracking eggs, creaming sugar with butter, looking at the clock for the
big hand to move to the 3. We giggled, I got chocolate all over myself as I
liked the wooden spoon and she adored how cute I was. There was so much love.
So, as I mixed batter, cracked eggs and creamed sugar with butter for his cake
and cookies, I thought about how much I love my husband. I thought about the
joy in his eyes as he saw my finished sweets, I imagined him slumping back in
his chair overcome with pleasure from my efforts. There I poured my love. And when
the time came, after I lit the last candle … it was just as I envisioned, a
huge response full of joy and mouth watering. I made him happy with sugar.
Sugar is like anything, some
sugar is ok, too much can kill you. Some water is good for you, but too much
water is called drowning. Sunshine is good for you, but have too much and you
get hurt. One glass of red wine is great for your heart, but too much will reek
havoc on your liver.
I know from years of study
and a life of eating just how hard it is to navigate sugar. I know more than
most just what it takes to actually have a safe and healthy relationship with
sugar.
If you’d like to know more
about how you too can develop a healthy relationship with sugar, and how to
find some healthier versions of the sweets that have a hold on you now, I can
help you. Join me August 21st at 6:30pm for my SUGAR WORKSHOP and
learn everything you ever wanted to know about sugar and some things you didn’t
even know existed in the world of sweets. You’ll also learn how to side-step
diabetes & manage it if you are in the throes of it. You will learn the
truth about why you can’t shed those extra 10lbs, you will learn why your skin
acts up and why you have mood swings, also, why you are so tired all the time.
Here is my recipe for the
best chocolate chip cookies I have ever made:
2 comments:
Great post Donna!
thanks @andreabeaman! I love you!!!!!!
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